The Circle of life continues

MJ. is dead. Everyone on internet is posting in his memories. The videos of his dance on youtube are getting maximum hits today. Facebook newsfeed is being bombarded with video sharing, biographies and other such thing related to him. He was, no doubt, an icon of entertainment industry. His life was full of drama, right from his childhood, through his struggle and till his death. He was either in newspapers due to his talent or due to his health (including plastic surgery) or due the cases.

Life has so much realities hidden in it which we willingly try to avoid. Death is one of those. I never forget this. I never try to run from this reality. Whenever I think about it, One questino always bothers me. What difference a person would make when he is dead? Look at MJ. He was one of the famous personality in this world and now he is no more among us. Will this make any difference to “any one”? Except for his family, who would be sad or would miss his presence for some time and then? The circle of life, continues. As I wrote above, people got some time today to hit on the sites which had some material related to MJ. They “honored” him by watching his videos or the content written about him. Then what? All will get busy in their normal routine. What effect this would have on MJ soul? I mean, was it really waiting for someone to come and hit youtube urls?

I just want to say that everyone is alone. Everyone has to face the realities of life by himself. I quoted some extreme example to explain this. Lets get little lower. When you are in pain, will anyone else can make a difference? It’d be you who will be suffering. Others would simply say, “get well soon”. Some will not even bother themselves to ask you this. But, whatever they say, it’d be you who are suffering. One thing that I want to confess here that yeah, there are few people who will make difference (at least you’ll feel that someone care about you).

But the bottom line is, you are alone. There is no one who is gona stand besides you in suffering a pain. There is no one for whom your presence would really matter. I really want to experience this in my life i.e; someone whose present would really matter to me. Your absence will make them feel that there was something missing to which they were “used to”. For sometime, they will miss you and then, the circle of life would continue either there would be someone who will replace you in their life or they would find some other thing better than you . 

FYI: I am still a human

One of the thing that I strongly believe is that “words are meaningless without an action”. If you can’t prove yourself at your words then it simply means that you are not important for me. I can’t believe or trust someone just on  his/her words. One has to prove oneself infront of me. But recenlty, there is something different happened to me, which I can’t believe.

I became reason for someone’s problem solution. In response; she said, “aliiii, thank you so much” followed by some urdu phrase “main aap ki bohat mushkoor houn : میں اٌپ کی بھت مشکور ھوں (see, i am not that bad at urdu)“. These were the few words that I “heard” and for the first time I was actually feeling the real smile behind all these words. I could imagine her saying this with a little smile on her face which was pure, smile which was on face with no mental tension – for that particular moment.

Most of the time, I just act in response to people words because they want that reaction from me. The particular situation wants that particular reaction. But that moment was one of those moment in my life, when I smiled for real. From my heart. I was feeling as if there was some problem of mine which has been solved and I am happy.

I can say that I have packed my emotions and kept them in some closet for long but after that day I realized that I still missed some emotions to pack. I felt the words and it’s meaning without any action. I can say that I am still a human, not a robot.

Your flies are open!!!

One of my teachers in university was attracted to a student, which somehow I knew and teacher also knew that I know. So, he always tried to avoid me while she is there asking her something about subjects or any question related to course. It was one of such day; I had few questions that I wanted to discuss with my teacher. So I was walking towards his office.

I found him in corridor standing with the “student”. Teacher was holding books in his hand and had a blushing smile on his face while talking to her. No sooner did he saw me, he was like “I don’t have time at the moment, go away”. I was about to leave suddenly i noticed that the girl is smiling while asking questions to him. Which confused me why she is  laughing and while chasing her eyesight i realized that my teachers’ trousers’ flies were open .

Now, I wanted to tell me teacher that there is something wrong and you could get embarrass later but my teacher was ignoring me continuously. Since i was notorious for pranks, whenever I tried to get close to my teacher to whisper him the secret of her smile, he pushed me away. I tried once, then again and again but in vain. At that moment I recalled the famous story of the king which gives “try try again” moral. So i tried for the last time, this time I was quite fast and didn’t gave a chance to my teacher to push me away. I got close to him and whispered, “Sir, your flies are open”.

He was explaining something to her and the moment he heard this he looked at me with an embarrassed smile, made a gesture as if he is tired holding up his books against his chest and moved his hands to down, covering the fly with books. Nice move. I went to class and waited for the sir to come and take the lecture. He was late and when he came he gestured to me to check if the flies are ok (he went to home and changed his trouser). I laughed and gestured, “Yes Sir”.